Is your all on the altar of sacrifice laid?
Your heart does the Spirit control?
You can only be blest, And have peace and sweet rest,
As you yield Him your body and soul.
Three years ago, on my 32nd birthday, I found a large bald spot on the back of my head. I panicked and thought of the most horrific things that could be wrong with me.
After a few months, I was finally diagnosed with Alopecia Areata, an autoimmune disease that attacks your hair follicles, causing them to fall out.
This was shocking and devastating to me, but I was able to cover it up with a wig for about a year. During and after my pregnancy with our fourth child, my hair slowly grew back and by the end of this past summer I had almost all my hair back! But in October my hair began to fall out rapidly.
I knew that it would not be long before I went completely bald.
I began to think ahead trying to figure out how I could cover up what was happening. All I could think was “I didn’t want to be bald, I don’t want people to look at me funny, I won’t feel pretty.” I really didn’t want to go through this again! But, I figured I would buy another wig and I could go about life as normal.
However, every time I would bring the subject of wearing a wig to my husband, he would say he didn’t think I should cover it up again. That left me feeling irritated because how could “I” go bald… “I” just can’t do that.
During this time the Lord began to prick my heart.
“Sarah, why can’t you give me your hair? That’s all I am asking for, I have given you so much. I have given you my life and all I am asking is for you to lay down your pride and give me your hair!”
“Sarah, I can use you through this. Think about how many people you could share your testimony with?”
These thoughts kept going through my mind and I knew the Holy Spirit was urging me to obey. I tried to push these thoughts out of my head and I wanted to plead with the Lord “NO, please Lord, don’t ask me to do this, please just let me wear a wig!”
The conviction became stronger and I was miserable! It was time for me to yield Him – both soul AND my body.
Finally, I knew that I must listen to the Lord and lay my wants and desires down for Him and allow Him to use me however He saw fit. I finally put my all on the altar and sacrificed myself fully to Him. And, as the chorus reads, peace and sweet rest came over me. I was surprised by the joy that compassed me! To know that my God is going to use me for His glory and that He has a unique plan for me is so exciting!
I have updated my testimony tract and my desire is that the Lord would give me opportunities to meet others to share not only my hair-loss story with but also how the Lord saved me.
Truly, I am finding that as I give my all to Him and sacrifice my wants and desires, I experience peace and sweet rest. The blessings through this trial in my life definitely outweigh any negatives. When you allow the Lord to control your heart, the peace and blessings that follow are so wonderful.
Why do we resist and want our own way so often? He only desires the best for us!
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. – Jeremiah 29:11
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